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Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Weight Gain

So, back in January I did a program called Whole 30 that I blogged about here and here. I felt good for a while, but after spring break, I think I became depressed again.  I had a hard time being involved with the kids in their schooling, despite the fact that we created a chore chart that they do each day.  It was a struggle.  Until recently when I became more active and then the girls followed suit, getting started each day was a big pain. I'm not a morning person and I've said on here that I don't like mornings. I'm not sure I've brought my Vitamin D levels back up yet because I feel tired most of the time still, or get tired after just short activities.

I have gained much of the weight back and have started another round of Whole 30 and just finished Day 4. Whole 30 has a timeline to help you understand that the way you are feeling on a certain day of the diet is pretty common across board for people on Whole 30. The last time I did this, I didn't feel quite so anxious and frustrated like the first few days after you quit anything addicting cold turkey.  I had my hangover on Day 1 instead of day 2-3. We will see how the rest of the days go.  The first time around wasn't too bad because I don't drink sodas or coffee. I do have a slight addiction to sugar, mostly because if there's sugar in the house I try to eat it quickly so I can get it out of the house, and because when I get mad, frustrated or angry, I eat, sometimes beyond my limits. I hope that with this next round, I will find a way to eat close to Whole 30 and be able to add in some non Whole 30 foods without going overboard.

The one thing I felt I did a little better at was going to bed at a reasonable hour. It's not exactly a reasonable hour right now, but I should still get 7+ hours of sleep if I finish this blog and go to bed.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Expectations and Sin

Well, I have yet again been let down by the human condition.  You plan something four months in advance and it all falls apart less than a week before it happens.  This isn't the first time I've been let down and disappointed by others, and it certainly won't be the last.

It also doesn't help that when we are disappointed by others it somehow brings to light our own sin.  I'd like to get mad at people who commit to something and then back out at the last minute, but then my pride and anger come out and then I'm sinning just as much as others who are being flaky and backing out of their commitments.  I understand if a family emergency comes up because we would likely be involved in the family event also, but to disregard children to comfort a friend across the country when you already have plans is just plain selfish.

I also know that the younger women should learn from the older women, but at some point an older woman might need to be confronted by a younger women.  Even in old age, people can change, especially if there's a glaring sin in their life.  We hope to continue learning how to be more Christ-like and overcoming the sin in our life through God's hope.

Recently I have started journaling more often and hope to get some of my feelings out so I don't keep them to myself and forget what I've been thinking.  Please pray that we will find a sitter for this weekend and that we will see God at work through this process instead of being angry at those who've disappointed us.  They are indeed sinners, like everyone on the planet and we hope that we will have the opportunity to give them grace.